hello everybody!
guess everybody's been really busy preparing for their upcoming examinations eh
so here's kudos to all who has been working hard. keep on keeping on eh~!



oh wells. promos is ending in less than 3 weeks time! and i have a lots of things that i want to do.. so im just going to pen down some of it.
#1. change my wardrobe!
#2. oh. what's holidays without going for one?! definitely going overseas with my buds.
#3. movie marathon please.
#4. taking up part-time job. any lobangs?
#5. im going to go green this time and recycle all my unwanted stuff. eew. this means that i have to pack my room. urggh.
#6. definitely going back to chung cheng to visit my lovely cadets!
#7. must-have stayover in besties' houses.
#8. burn out the excess baggage!
#9. seriously, i need to plan my future. doing some research on the courses that i want to pursue.
#10. shopping spreesssssssssssssss~

everyone's got their own pile of shit to rattle on.
and if i just focus on the problem that i have.. what have i to gain.
let's be realistic here.
i'll end up to be a bitter, cynical homosapien.
i don't want that.


i've got a better solution out.
i shouldn't focus on what i dont have.
i've got a great mom, awesome grandparents, bermuda triangle , a cosy house, a school to study in, enough pocket money to settle my meals, great friends around me.
most importantly, i have God.
thank god for lifting my vision; to get me out of this emo period.
thank god that when i blamed you for all that has happened, you still choose to love me unconditionally.
what have i to complain?


and for friends who poured me concerns, thank you very much..
gees..

being a couch potato once holidays are in and schools are out, i was browsing through the channels. it shocked me when i saw that steve irvin's dead. shocked . totally shocked.

It really pains me to see such a passionate croc hunter pass away like that. and when it all comes back to reality, it makes it even more insufferable to see his wife, and his kid live without a father.

itsn't it unfair to see a kid grow up without a father, without a comforter, encourager and a bread winner? To only have the child's mother to attend her graduation ceremony while others have both? isn't it unfair to have someone else to walk you down the aisle when others have their father?

like me, she'll dread fathers' day. when every other family have their celebrations, mom and i will just stay at home, staring at each other , afraid to speak to each other for fear that the latter will be hurt. where deep inside, we are thinking of daddy. the good ol' days before he left us for another woman.

it really hurts to see a father comforting his child when she had a scolding from her mom for doing something wrong. it make me jealous. how long was it when i last ran to you... a decade? i can't remember.

why choose another woman when u already have mommy? i can't understand. and am too afraid to ask mommy for fear that she'll have a relapse and i don't want to hear. truth hurts.

i miss all the goodnight kisses u never fail to give to sister and i. i miss our sunday outings. i miss you daddy.

im tired of crying myself to sleep whenever i think of u. why must this happen to us. i don't understand.

god, it's tearing me up.